Friday, October 16, 2020

My Kingdom Duty

Autumn in New Hampshire.

One of my favorite quotes is by C. S. Lewis, who wrote;

If I find in myself a desire which nothing in this world can satisfy the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world. If that is so, I must take care, on the one hand, never to despise, or be unthankful for, these earthly blessings, and on the other, never to mistake them for the something else of which they are only a kind of copy, or echo, or mirage. I must keep alive in myself the desire for the true country, which I shall not find til after death. I must never let it get snowed under or turned aside; I must make it the main object of life to press on to that other country and to help others to do the same.”

- C. S. LEWIS

For as long as I can remember I’ve been told I have a gift with words. And while I’ve never seen myself as particularly gifted, what I do know is there dwells within me a desire to work words and to hone their shape. A passion that runs so deep I believe a lifetime of writing could never quench it. However, since we moved into the van and became full time travelers, finding time to both write and having signal to be able to post and share my writing has been challenging, and it left me wondering if continuing to blog was an endeavor that was worth my time. I’ve never been one to care about numbers. I believe just about anyone can establish a following on any number of subjects, as the internet will attest. But I’ve also been disappointed myself when others whose writings and offerings I’d grown to love often suddenly and without explanation disappeared from the screen. I don’t want to leave my readers in limbo wondering when or if I’ll continue to write. I believe with blogging we have a responsibility, however briefly to speak light into the lives of others, and in doing so, others will hopefully find something of lasting value.

But as luck would have it, or rather the hand of God directed, I happened upon the quote I shared with you at the beginning of this post. It is a quote by C. S. Lewis, and one I have heard and read many times. But it was not until my most recent reading of it, that it become personal. As I read I had the the thought, though at first it seemed lofty, that this desire was gifted to me not only to bring me into communion with Him, but as a service to others. To keep alive their desire for “that other country” and to cast their vision upon the One who created it all. Perhaps writing, more than a desire, is my Kingdom duty.

The years of my childhood and growing up, marrying young, motherhood , homekeeping and homeschooling, my deep love of nature and for the changing of the seasons, all of it prepared me “for such a time as this”. This small offering chronicles a life time of “earthly blessings”, those foretastes of the Kingdom, that fix our eyes upon home and beyond to the home they herald. Though such stories are being told in many other places and by far more gifted and talented writers than I, I must “take care” with the blessing that has been bestowed to me and not allow myself to get “snowed under” by numbers and algorithms and expert opinions, or turned aside by a little thing like lack of signal and internet connection. And so I will continue to add my voice to the collective and trust that the eyes and ears for which these small offerings will be an encouragement will be guided here. If you find yourself here with any regularity, I pray you will continue to visit and trust that there is always more to come!

Here’s to grace that has brought us safe thus far and to the grace that leads us home!

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